I wander around my dull and old town with boredom, to lighten up my mood I swing my arms and skip joyfully on the hard tiles engulfed in soft snow. Cold flakes falling upon my clothing doesn’t bother me at all. A gust of wind charges in my direction, but I don’t care. The crunchiness of my footsteps stepping upon the combination of hard and soft echoes throughout the empty and lifeless alleyway. A bunch of old, rusty, yellow-ish and brownish missing posters, each one with its own information. I proceed to skip happily passing the posters, giving no attention to them at all. Finally my eye has been caught. A blackboard overtaken by different names belonging to different people. Some unique and some casual. Glee has finally entered once I notice the perfect spot for my beautiful name. The muffled crackling comes to a stop when I slide so cleanly, landing in front of the board. I slowly walk towards it and spot a piece of white chalk sitting there. “It’s time I put this to use”.
The crackling is replaced by the sounds of high-pitched squeaks while I freely write my name down on the dusty board with the rough piece of chalk. The freezing particles rest on my bright maroon jacket and my grey blue hat. Nothing can distract me from completing my wonderful name. Finally, I’ve joined the troupe. Backing up to admire how well my name stands out from the others. I relax my hands, drop the chalk without any care, gently pull my scarf down and allow happiness to take control. Which results in a small but heartwarming smile. In the back of my head, strange mechanical noises emerge out of nowhere. Chasing my satisfaction away and allowing concern to barge in. It takes hold of me, I turn around, towards the shop. It was tough to view it properly with ice and fog stuck on the window. At this moment all kinds of emotions are battling for the remote, but caution hasn’t left yet. Slowly approaching. Moving my head side to side. Ensuring no one is around. Finally, I reach the window and use my mitten to wipe the glass. Amazement returns. “An antique doll,” I observe closely. Staring at the eerie dolls appearance. Something about this doll catches my attention. I inspect myself, compare it to the doll and realisation hits. A doll version of me? It has very precise details. The only difference is the life I have in my eyes while I stare deeply into it, meeting its soulless gaze. Finally completing my comparison, I move my head up to continue appreciating the figure. It’s gone. Moving and shifting, scanning for it. My search comes to a stop once I reach the door. Mission success! The doll has been found.
Feeling the adrenaline switching from vein to vein up to my upper body and down to my lower. Immediately, I turn the door handle. It doesn’t budge. I knew it wasn’t going to open, but excitement wasn’t going to allow this obstacle to be left undefeated. Soon the empty alleyway is overwhelmed by the sounds of squeaking and clunking of the silver door handle. The collaboration of squeals and clomps increases in speed while I jiggle the handle faster and with more aggression each time it refuses. Hope has completely disintegrated. I can’t help but pout at the door and stomp my foot furiously on the snow, Imagining the door was my mother. Like I said, this door will not be left undefeated. I reach down, shape the fluffy substance into a bumpy sphere and throw it at the glass like a sloppy baseball pitcher. Walking away along with my disappointment. Sliding my hand on the smooth, chilly wall. A clink of a bell rushes to my eardrums. Reviving my determination. Slightly turning my head to see the door creaked open not too much. “Oh exhilaration, how I’ve missed you”.
Running sloppily towards the door. Peaking through the gap and preparing myself to be discovered by the shopkeeper. Once I’m ready, my hand pushes the door open. It lets out a rusty screech and a muffled cling, echoing throughout the empty shop with no human being in sight. But if you were to consider “dolls” to have a soul of their own, this room is suffocated in life. Boots releasing a liquid-y rustling while I wander around, fidgeting with my fingers and examining each peculiar doll. My emotions not knowing how to respond. The trip is finished once my creepy but cute doll replica is spotted on a shiny brown table in the same position. When reaching for it I’m rudely interrupted by a laid down wooden boy doll while continuously cycling on its tricycle. Its eyes have the same blank stare as my doll. Bending down, picking him up and placing him down properly. He heads straight towards the door which randomly closed once it got up. Weirdly, no matter how many times the wooden doll failed it proceeded to slam and bang on the door. I could help him, but that’s not my problem. Returning to obtain my doll, it disappears again. The investigation is back. This time, it’s completely blended in. Hope is slowly dying, until I notice it on the top shelf. Excitedly running to the olive green couch. Creaks and faint jingles are built once I hop onto the couch. Climbing the shelves to receive my doll, not caring about the others I bumped into. Pulling off my thick beige mitten with my crooked teeth. Carelessly dropping it down. All I had in my mind was “You are mine!”
Mitten placed on the shelf below the one with my beautiful doll relaxing on it. Trying to extend my arm and waist. I’m that close. The thumping of the wooden doll increases in speed and volume. I couldn’t care less. “I’m nearly there!”. Stretching my arm even further, “Come on!”. The closer I got, the more widened my smile and eyes would go. Finally, my finger interacts with the doll’s nose. Unexpectedly, I’m devoured by the view of its eye enlarging. Images of myself frightened each time it flashes become images of baby dolls gathered and floating towards me. At this point, no emotion can control me during this horror show. To finish it off, I’m sucked into the last doll’s eye. I awake to see light shining through the glass from a fisheye view. Heavy breathing and clicking of my eyes frantically looking around is all I hear within this space. I’m unable to move or feel anything except panic. Soon, the “soulless” dolls show evidence of life when one beside me slowly and tiredly opens their eyes. The rest of the dolls follow. My panicking and hyperventilating is stopped without my permission by the same familiar mechanical sound that caught my attention before. Now, it has a redhead doll wearing a red dress on the top of it. Waiting patiently for its own personal child. Similar to how my one was. I understand now. I’m aware of the warnings I didn’t pay much attention to before I ended up becoming one of them. I really did join the troupe after all.